Evolution: ‘That’ To Subject

 

Now let’s go from ‘Sight’ to ‘Subject’. If you think about it awhile you might notice that of all the things in the world that are perfectly inexpressible, the one thing that is the most inexpressible of all is You.

‘Subject’ is the idea closest to me. It is me. It’s ridiculous to doubt it, of course. But just to be sure we are going to take a closer look.

With ‘Subject’, it’s not just ‘Seeing’; it’s any sensory relationship. I can’t see the source of my seeing, I can’t hear the source of my hearing, taste the source of my tasting… In general, I can’t have any sensory relationship with my sensory source.

It’s not just sensory relationships. It’s any and all relationships. I cannot have any kind of cognitive relationship with my cognitive source; affective relationship with my affective source.; volitional relationship with my volitional source. And so on.

I can’t have any true relationship with ‘Me’. Any relationship I have can only be with an idea of ‘Me’ in a ‘confounding of Object as Subject’. All markings of Subject are through, and only through, Object. This is the Axiom of ‘Self’.

The Object confounded as Subject could be direct or inferred, extrapolated or truncated, clear or contorted, explicit and verbalized or implicit and muted. Look in the basement. Check the attic. It’s an acquired skill to find the fellow.


The only convincing way to grab this very slippery ‘I’ is to laboriously identify this ‘Self’, every little feature of it, direct and inferred, and extract it using chopsticks, and put it aside.

But it gets a little more complicated than it sounds. Why? ‘If I am extracting this ‘Self’, who is doing this extraction except this so-called ‘Self’?’

How do I lift myself up by my own Bootstraps? How do I scratch my right forefinger with my right forefinger? How do ‘I’ locate and extract ‘Me’?

The way, only way, to get to me is by the procedure of the Self-Negating Expression. The systematic sawing-off of the tree branch you are sitting on.

This is the basic principle. In delicious irony, ‘I cannot say anything honest about myself’ is the only honest thing I can say about myself. [Is that a Self-Negating Expression sneaking by?]